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Thursday, May 31, 2007

An eventful day - Fire in bldg

Had a very eventful day yesterday!!! Started writing this out last night but was zonked
(with some wine) to complete this :) Woke up in Kuwait yesterday and sleep here in Bahrain...:)

Yesterday started as usual with me struggling to wake us as always.. he he.. then well reached work... worked a bit.. and then suddenly everyone was asked to leave the office!!!! Some one smelt smoke and so we were all asked to evacuate. At first everyone thought it was a false alarm...the reason it was hard to believe there was a real fire in the building was cause we usually have these fire drills when the fire alarm would go off and we'd all have to go down.. Initially we would faithfully exit the building but as time passed and we realized it was a drill we stopped participating.. Anyways yesterday it was the real thing!!!!... The whole place was smoking up... everyone was panicking and rushing, carrying all their belonging and rushing down the fire exit...

We managed to climb down 8 floors of steep stairs safely except for this one accident when this Arab lady slipped.. I hope she's all right cause from the looks on her face she was hurt bad!!!....

Posting some pics of the whole event.. Luckily had this digi cam (borrowed from this kind friend mine is still in coma) then so got some good pics :). To all the victims me and my colleague seemed like reporters walking around taking pics :) he he that was fun...

After an hour of hooo.. and haaa and panic and basically timepass we all were asked to go back to our respective offices....and work...Sigh!!!. Cause of the whole fire thing the ACs couldn’t be switched on and hence some of my colleagues were feeling suffocated.. Seeing this the so kind HR manager decided to give everyone the rest of the day off.. so ya ya....I left work!!!.. Was already scheduled to leave early with a half day leave since I had to catch my flight to here (Bahrain) at 3:45!!!.. but cause of that I saved my half day leave!!!

So left work early, caught the flight on time.. Felt soo good to leave the place.. for a short time though, but it a good feeling, a break from the usual....And not having to wake up early on a working day is always a fantastic feeling!!!! Just chilling and not doing anything productive is also a great feeling..

So yup that was yesterday.... Today yet another eventful day....A wedding in the family so.. :) There would be more to say tomorrow... :) if I have the energy after A LOT of the 3Ds...
:)

Arey trying to upload these pics but its not happening.. will do so when am back home... :) laters then.....

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Then.....and... Now

Meeting old friends has always been fun.. Just returning back from this party where I met friends from school and I’m talking about friends from the 7th and 8th standard.. Good old times.. Good old memories..

Back then would've never thought we'd all end up in the same place 10-12 years later... :). But here we are!!!!

This friend whose b’day I went for was my partner in the 7th standard...am gonna relate a story to you that he told me, rather reminded me about last year when I met him again!!!!... This is one very distinct memory he has in connection with me.. you'll know why in a bit...

Well, I used to be naughty kid with the innocent looks, the kind that would run around in the class as soon as the teacher left the room… :) a few of my good friends reading this would disagree with the innocent part but trust me this one time.. i'm talking about 7th standard.. :)... Ok so I write something in my book, (wrote the word F***) and I'm whispering to this guy innocently ... "This is a bad word ok... Don’t use it…"

When he told me that last year obviously I had no memory of it but couldn’t help but laugh at that… I’m thinking.. Sha!!!!…I was so naive … Those were the days.. he he… the “good” old days….

My friends now.. will have a totally different story to tell… (Psst.. word of advice.. don’t believe em .. )..... :) <- my naughty ;)

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

...from the depths of me...

Its nice to be in control and play defense... but sometimes you have to let down your shields to actually see beyond what seems..
~ Me

Monday, May 21, 2007

...Sigh!!!....

Sometimes the most important thing in a whole day is the rest we take between two deep breaths. ~Etty Hillesum

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Relaxed

One of those good days...Fruitful at work...Long fun walk in the evening wit friends...lil wine and dine ;p... listened and listening to some good old classics... and gonna sleep soon...

Here are some of the songs I was listening to.. no particular pick, no particular order, no particular reason.. just some easy listening....

"Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
And just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed
Nothin' seems to fit
Those raindrops are fallin' on my head, they keep fallin'
So I just did me some talkin' to the sun
And I said I didn't like the way he got things done
Sleepin' on the job
Those raindrops are fallin' on my head, they keep fallin'..."

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"Send me the pillow that you dream on.
Don't you know that I still care for you?
Send me the pillow that you dream on,
So darling, I can dream on it, too."

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"Oh, you can kiss me on a Monday a Monday a Monday
is very very good
Or you can kiss me on a Tuesday a Tuesday a Tuesday
in fact I wish you would
Or you can kiss me on a Wednesday a Thursday a
Friday and Saturday is best
But never ever on a Sunday a Sunday a Sunday
cause that's my day of rest"

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"I hear the sound of distant drums
Far away, far away
And if they call for me to come
Then I must go and you must stay"

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"Feelings, nothing more than feelings,
Trying to forget my feelings of love.
Teardrops rolling down on my face,
Trying to forget my feelings of love."

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"A long long time ago on graduation day you handed me your book I signed this way
Roses are red my love violets are blue sugar is sweet my love but not as sweet as you"

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Sitting here typing this post.. can hear my dada sing along to these golden oldies :)..:) he's relaxed I know, remembering his good old days... :) :)

Everyone's relaxed here right now.. :) <- smile of satisfaction

Nothing is permanent in this wicked world - not even our troubles
~Charlie Chaplin

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Proud to be a Goankar

Wanted to blog about something else… infact have most of it typed out but as I sit here to complete and post the same, got some other stuff running in my mind... some other stuff I wanna blog about and so here goes… this is my space after all….

Well today as I was returning from work.. was taking about our Goan culture with a colleague and I got out of the car (colleague's of course) and headed home feeling so proud of my culture.. Proud to be a Goan..

We Goans are well knows by the 3 D's...(in no fixed order and repeated if you like ;p )

Dining
Dancing
Drinking

We're mostly cheerful and love to party. We are susegat (Konkani translated: laid back and relaxed).. We like our sheeth ani niste chi kodi (rice and fish curry)... our favorite love song which must be played for weddings and slow sessions at dances is "Molbailo dou" (...don't believe me ask any Goan who has lived the Goan life) Oh and how could I forget the Goan Masala.. Well no typical goan party ends without it...Its basically a medley.. a series of funny konkani songs which even if played continuously back to back would never bore you...

Oh and speaking of typical goan stuff.. well there's the famous sorpotel (made of pig liver and meat), may not seem like the best thing to eat.. but a delicacy no one can resist.. :) hmm what else...living in Goa means living the life of the party.. the smooth life day in and day out.. Totally chill out life.. Gotta experience it to understand...

Okay suddenly sounds like am marketing the place nah…. Had no such intention.. just feeling happy to be part of this culture. Well there’s the other side.. but we’re just thinking happy thoughts now :-)

Ok…there is this picture from my imagination (and now on my things to do list)... Me sitting by a shaley (need I mention with my special someone) by the beach under a beach umbrella... sipping on some good old monk..eating chakana with some konkani music playing in the background and just chilling out..not moving from there except of course when nature'd call.. :)... but yeah... my idea of a relaxing time...as a susegat Goankar (relaxed Goan!!!)

In Richard Wagner's words Joy is not in things; it is in us

Monday, May 14, 2007

Emotions explosions

Today me experience one of those senti moments. A very good friend.. Sliffles.. getting married this November had to get this certificate (NOC - No objection certificate) from the church... now this is a very important certificate which is proof that you haven't been married before. You need to have 2 witnesses as proof of the same!!!!..I had not idea it was but..its a big deal!!...

Anyways,I casually went along just for company and then I was asked to be one of the witness since both witnesses couldn't be from the same family and so I had to sign..

I felt so much older than I usually feel (FYI-I usually feel 20), felt like the special chosen one bestowed with powers "to sign", felt like the beginning of a different phase/era.. was such a touching moment!!! and Sliffles is such a close friend...which was more reason to feel so sentimental...

I really don't understand why.. but I felt so many different emotions in a matter of a few minutes.. mixed emotions just wanted to fall out as tears...Don't know if you'll get what I'm saying but.. I felt very special!!!!

Saturday, May 12, 2007

Fine moments...

Adios to another fantastic weekend... like the last.. this was fun but in a totally different way.. went out for this picnic which has still left me tired and has left long lasting impression on my mind.. Wasn't physically relaxing but relaxing.. when I got back home in the evening felt like I was out on a vacation and like I was coming home after ages!!!!! Strange nah.. but true :)

Want to describe the feelings and everything that happened.. Got it all in my head but like I said.. no enery :) soooooo tired right now.. just wanna crash!!! (and am gonna do just that..)

......Nevertheless... HAPPY!!!!

M. Scott Peck:

The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

My DIGICAM IN Coma.. Please pray

A really sad thing happened day before yesterday – My camera had an accident and it’s not working now. I’m really disturbed and sad about it. It was a gift from My Lolo’s dad… on my last birthday. The reason it is special is not just cause it’s gifted by “his” dad but because it was a totally unexpected (not to mention expensive) gift. When I’d inquired as to why the trouble and expense for ME!!! Uncle just said, “I really don’t know… It was just and instinct which I followed”.

I felt so special… an its not working now :(

Described below is what happened...

This couple friend of mine dropped in for some first dance waltz training. They are getting married on the 17th of this month. The whole teaching experience was fun. Something I plan to blog about soon…

Anyways so during the course of the teaching we took videos with my HP digicam. Took videos of em when they just started learning and after about an hour and half of training and practice took more videos – you know, to see the difference before and after… and when we were watching it.. all excited of course.. (Cam in my hand) he – the groom suddenly moves his hand trying to point at something in the video and CRASH!!!! The cam falls to the floor!!!... I don’t know why but at that time it didn’t seem to me like it was a big accident and I just picked up the cam and ignore the incident.. After they left... picked up the cam to switch it off and place it in the pouch and… the lens wouldn’t go in… :( the mechanism was making this funny noise like its trying to go in, but stuck!!! My heart broke… If only I could turn back time…. Isa did a good job at consoling me which lasted me though the night… but then the feelings returned in the morning… Telling myself “Its only a thing” didn’t help like it usually does….

I called up uncle yesterday evening telling him about the accident (incident)… he was calm and said “don’t worry dear it can be fixed” and I thought to myself “I hope so…”

God has commanded time, to console the unhappy.
- Joseph Joubert

Sunday, May 06, 2007

So little time.. so much to do... :)

Just sitting here..wondering what is it that I can write about today... feeling so drained right now.. got so many thing I wanna do before this day ends.. 1 hr to go.. and time is just flying.

Busy day today at work started off fine and planned a nice fancy schedule of stuff to finish today. But by the end of the day… looked at the same list.. and felt like crap. Just managed to get past the first 2 entries.. At times like these, when you running behind schedule.. I just wish the code just starts working without me thinking too much of whats wrong...!! Exactly what I felt today... Had to finish writing this procedure.. didn’t seem like a big task and thought I'd finished… but then something wasn’t working right :-| was too saturated to even understand why.. left it for tomorrow morning…This is usual.. and has happened before… I’m damn sure I’ll see what is the problem in the morning.. :) (I hope so)

With all the work.. Just wish I could think faster and work faster than I can.. Problem is not the work.. the time.. :-) very rarely do these opportunities come.. Funny!!! You wanna work somethings with interest only to be limited by time!!!

Well that’s all that on my mind right now…. Other than these things I gotta do now and work :p and SLEEP!!!!!!!!

Saturday, May 05, 2007

My Spiderman-3 review

Adios to another great weekend…

Spent some quality time with dad and self... watching TV, online, reading, eating, grocery shopping etc…

Ah yeah watched Spiderman – 3 yesterday… and yup was a good movie…. But like I said, and saying again…. Too many characters, too many plots and too many connections… you have to see it to know what I’m saying…

Not denying that it wasn’t exciting .. I like the movie a lot… but sometime in the middle felt like… they tried to cram everything into one movie because at some part I felt they should’ve added more detail some more fiction!!!!. I think they could’ve made another part and ended this one well with a whole lot of detail. Was a long movie though 2 n 1/2 hrs with editing… Editing??? You ask… yea here in Kuwait there kinda sensor all the short kisses even if it last for about 5 seconds…

The theatre was loaded with kids all of them exited and whistling and happy… There was this one cute little kiddo sitting next to me and from what I felt and remember (when I did look away from the screen) was that he kept pointing his hands around here and there imitating Spiderman. It was really funny his parents were so embarrassed trying to keep him calm but this little bugger kept going on… If I could wish for something at that time I’d wish that magically a web sprayed out from his hands hehe.. I’m sure he would’ve been more than thrilled.

Story wise, I thought it was fine… But what I like the most about the movie and what was consistent in all 3 parts was the magnification of human values, emotions and needs.

The acting was great too.. I thought all actors did a fantastic job in every role. You could actually tell from the expression if he was playing the bad guy or the good guy… ok if you didn’t get that you’d have to watch the movie.

To conclude with my Spiderman review, I’m sure the kids would love it… if you’ve enjoyed the Spiderman action in previous parts there’s surely a lot more action here…and for those of you who appreciate new characters you’ll love the new ones in this part… not disclosing them here don’t want to spoil your suspense… :) :)

Friday, May 04, 2007

Hair cut experience

Today went for to get my hair cut.. and for some reason going to the hairdressers has always been a nail-biting experience.

Well FYI.. I like experimenting new hairstyles.. back in college it was so much easier just go to the parlor pick up the hair styling book, point at a style and just pray it was cut the way I want it and the way it looked in the book. No worries about what any one thought, no tension about superiors or anything for that matter

Times have changed you can say, cause now when I'm getting a hair cut I'm praying that it's not cut too short or it don't make me look small cause as it is I look 5 years younger than I am.. (not complaining.. :) ) and too short a cut would drop it to 8!!! :) he he.. mostly cause of work.. cuz I always get the "she's so young look!!!" :)

Tough luck this time.. its cut shorter that I wanted..me and my big mouth.. when the hairdresser asked me "Should I cut it one inch shorter", I said.. "its ok.. you can go shorter than that" .. so can't complain this time.. hehe..

But again looking on the brighter side... I've finally got rid of the little color that was left of last time's hair color experience. So now finally it's all naturally black.. :) looking forward to getting red streaks.. but guess I'll hang on to that thought for now..

Other than that the day was pretty much good on the whole.. had a nice short nap this afternoon.. thats why am fresh right now...and yes the reading is still on... :) gonna log off now like a good girl and get back to my book.. :)

"Hope" is the thing with feathers-- That perches in the soul-- And sings the tune without the words-- And never stops--at all-- Emily Dickenson

Thursday, May 03, 2007

Amen.. I'm Alive

Suddenly there is so much to say … (The reason I started blogging)… it’s actually a good feeling… “I moved that block!!!”

Work seems to be taking on a good direction. Being given oppurtunities to actually do what I wanted to do and though I never really looked at it that way i.e. as “Things I want to do at work” I am glad its happening. I suppose all this is leading to a good formation of the thoughts. “Interesting” – (that’s what I’m thinking right now). Perhaps this is for the good hmm… thinking, it probably is, considering that everything happens for a reason.

For a change the days too have been passing by with the unexpected note (the way I like it). For a change it’s been a good 2 weeks… without any regret rolls (that’s a whisper just afraid to be speaking too soon). No backstage issues… I could go through that bungee jump right now as in right right now…don’t know about laters cause I whispered :)

Things have been moving, started reading again and yes going to finish it this time, over the last year I’ve started 4 books outta which I completed 2. Two I left half way which I think is not good. For now, no interest to go over em again and finish it…

But I’ve started reading another this year.. And looking at my interest I suppose I’ll see the end of this one for sure. Thinking about setting some reading targets for the rest year... Probably a little too late for New Year resolutions… but what the hell!!! – Better late than never…

I think this is a good start… Hoping for that good end… I believe.. “If its not fine, Its not the end…”

Yesterday had this encounter with a person, I prefer to keep anonymous who was filled with bitterness and hatred… may or may not be his/her fault but still it was there.. it was a phone conversation and at the end of it… all I was thinking …and singing to myself was

"If everyone cared and no body cried
If everyone loved and no body lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when no body died
Amen... I'm Alive"

Will say more about this song... but will leave that for another day


“The most profound statements are often said in silence.” - Lynn Johnston (1947 - ), For Better or For Worse, 01-15-04

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Good Times..

(Just for the record.... I'm Alive...!!!! )

Today was one of those days that started off on a lousy note but ended on the best. Been a while since something like this has happened, so logging in the experience for days that feel otherwise…

This is what happened…

As I said, the day started off with me feeling "sha!!! There’s nothing to do here", well frankly there isn’t one just has to find ways to stay alive here anyways that’s that. Work was “the same old” but things started looking good when we left 10 minutes early from work – for a change and since then everything just happened just the way I like it - WITHOUT ANY PLANNING.

Dad and bro suddenly ring me up saying they are picking me up from work…

Sliffles decided to drop in to help out with the computer, ok that was fun... (Now!!!! Not then!!!! if your reading this) when he said he couldn’t make it while I was talking to him on the phone and the next thing I know is he’s walking into my place..

Then, there was a sequence of teasing and troubling isa (because she just returned from her 1 week trip to India)…which lasted for an hour or more!!!

Then cinders and kev (the fun couple – both good friends) drop in for a lil TP too bad me couldn’t hang out - went out shopping for my "not little any more"(NLAM) brother with dad and sliffles.. :)

And there was rod too... guess I owe an equal amount of gratitude for this feeling for his unexpected visit. We sat down like old times, chit chatting, talking about stuff … just the way I like to.. Ah then got my timely quota of 60s/70s rock songs.. best part was he gave me a preview of all the songs in that particular folder so I could actually choose what I wanted… J. I plan to collect enough to fill a cd so I could have my own album of chill out music J

And so yeah…. that was it!!! That was what it took to make a seemingly lousy day into one of those rare days that end in a great feeling!!! And how could I forget to add.. had this short and sweet chat with my Lolo happy day for us.. 2 years now since we met!!!... come to think of it.. 1st of May has always been good for me.... hmmm... that's a thought.. guess my Late Gabby mama is watching ova me.. will send up prayers for him tonight...

That’s when I realized and smiled again feeling thankful to the “All – Mighty” one thinking... “Thanks for being there in so many ways…”